@2 in the night

Its at 2 in the night, when you have smoked that last cigg, emptied the beer cans and have actually nothing much to do. The darkness of the night and the sound of your fan is what you can feel around you. Hopelessly trying to find friends you really want to talk to, refresh your FB page or the gmail and then just because you have nothing to do ping any aquaintance of yours and ask "hey wass up , long time " But how long can you keep that sort of conversation going and you are back to square one !! Thats when you feel empty .. and this feeling has its own repurcussions

With nothing to think about future you reminisce over your past, skim through your ex`s profile ,think about what you did, how you did and why you did and at last the most difficult of all what are you doing differently now. And obviously because I dont have a satisfactory answer for the last one, i start questioning myself isnt it time to sleep ? There is another question that comes to the mind , is it the time to start thinking about getting married ? Cos I am losing friends daily to the institution of marriage and no longer their status reads available. And humans cant live alone, least of all me !! But a minute later thinking about marriage seems scarier than 'paranormal activity' and the best way I can help myself is to grab my cushions ,increase my fan speed (and hence the sound) ,put my tortured laptop to some well deserved rest and go to sleep...